Starting to wonder if this Blog is actually reinforcing the definition of Bipolar on to my personality... trying to limit how I perceive myself in terms of the Bipolar Illness and constantly fearful that I am riding this self fulfilling prophecy to be arriving at Terminal Bipolar Central.
It's getting to the point where I say, almost with pride, I have Bipolar. Like it's a cool thing to have and that it will excuse any less than ideal personality traits, coz I can blame it on my Bipolar.
It's just bang bang bang... can't distance myself from it so it would seem. Second guessing if the Blog is a good thing or a bad thing, not bad bad, but just a hindrance.
Yesterday I forgot to take my Venlafaxine 'Effexor', a first thing in the morning drug, which as on cue, shoots my equilibrium out of into deep space, leaving me nauseated, light headed, dizzy and right fucked off. Stays with me all day and is a constant reminder how shite it is to take drugs, or to miss them I should say. Can remember my coffee but not my med's. Sweet.